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I think it's time for another update!

Hmmm...I am not very fond of this blog because it is boring.Okay,i know i am the one who made it boring but only because this blog is really shallow to me.What i mean is things i post here are only updates of my life one in awhile.It contains those shallow thoughts of mine and things i think i can share out here which is really really little.Hah!
That explains the rare updates.

So yeah.Again,im lost in my train of thoughts.So little to talk about here.

Hmm...i have stopped going for trainings since my coach left.I don't find a purpose to go anymore.And i stopped joining competitions.It just feel like i completely left my racket aside.I can never imagine me giving it up in future,i never thought i would.I dk why,although i've been stuggling if i should for the past few months.But somehow this "break" seem like i will be giving it up forever.I've been doing good but i think it is a wrong route me and my coach is heading.I thought i had a lot a lot of passion of it but it took me years to realise that actually no,it is not as strong as i thought.There's something else i love more and want to go for.But you know that i have never tried going out for anything i want badly.I can't elaborate more here.There is just more to it and it is hard to decide.

Sucks,don't you think so?
I can never make up my mind.Even when i do,i always hold back bacause i don't wanna take risk.I don't wanna fall and screw things up.Take it as i have no courage.Paranoid little freak,i know.That is why i am always stuck at where i am.
Cmon,im sure this happens to many of you?

And my bro just entered NS 3 weeks ago.The atmosphere in the family actually died down quite a lot.I kind of miss him quite a lot but i dont really show it to people.I just don't like it when people know my emotions.My mother probably think that i don't but im used to it,ya know.People who are really important to me always don't think they are although they really really are.I thought they should know.But thats only what I thought you see...

People will normally tell me it's okay.:DDDD

But you know what? It is obviously not okay to me anymore.
Haha.I'm just gonna try harder the next time round.
If you face it too,yeah,then try harder too.It's hard but i guess it would really make a difference

:)

To all the readers who are reading this,i hope you had a great day today:D

Good night loves<3